III. Tired & Lost

I'm lonely and want someone by my side so much. But apart of me feels I should learn to not feel lonely alone first. Plus, I feel too incompetent and undesirable. I don't see anyone wanting me by them. I feel too much like a burden. 

I don't know if I'm just overly spiritualizing this so I can keep telling myself that I need to be okay alone first, or it's just an excuse for me being too afraid to try and love again. I don't foresee anyone with me in my future anyways...

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