57. End

There's an imaginary wall
In my way

There's nothing I look forward too
Everyday

I can't feel the warmth
Of knowing things are okay

I can't escape
This veiled loneliness

I can't breathe
To gather myself

I can't slow down
As I run from shame

There's great haste
As I lay in waste

Stuck between a crossroad
That loops in a never ending hell

Suffocating from the lack of intimacy
Apathy comes to shield my tired heart
Dying from its lack of genuine love

But its end draws near
With no sign of a rebirth
I guess this is goodbye?

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