JHem

As if ice were grating my skin, My feathers become a blanket, But the cold makes no contact. Is it safe to walk out of my den? No warmth despite fingers in my pocket. Constrained by futility as the light in me retracts. My wings chain-up my spirit like cryogen. How do I find the strength to unlock it? It's easier if I gave up the will to act. But I crashed headfirst to murder evidence of my sin. I asked Death if Hell and I would make a good fit.  "Who said God judging was a genuine fact?"

You might think it's normal To erase the words That caused your hurt But crazy To erase the joy Too So it gets to your name And it's no more So no one remembers.

Like I didn't have to hide, At least far by much, The words from my voice. But initiation wasn't mine, Simply reciprocation. Who's to say, Engagement didn't lead to my Excitement for participation. A pink rose to distract, From the hand that pushed. Blinded by memory, Perhaps I forgot, It was tragically difficult.

A shade meant to, Not perhaps as prescribed. Or so public perception inconceive Blocked more than All intents an purposes. Especially to keep it self-contained. Stay deemed Self-explanatory  No no no no! Goodbye Not or Forever Words said but not meant. As if you wrote Japanese, But read in Chinese. As if I spoke Alien Yes, yes, yes, yes! 行かないで！