II. Separateness Contemplation

I just feel lonely and out of place, with or without others. I just can't shake the feeling of separateness. I feel like I'm not meant to be happy, yet that doesn't mean I'm here without reason, just that happiness isn't something for me. By happiness, I mean content and loveing in life and to feel loved back. I feel like I am meant to suffer... just no warmth to cover me as I step into life... like I'm just not worth caring for...

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