JHem

It can be difficult to let words flow, From the river of your soul. It can be devastating to be firm, And speak how you feel. It can be heartbreaking to have resentments, But that's why you learn to live from your heart. Cat's got our tongue on feelings to be shared. But you look for her to be able to let go. Groundless from fear of integrity, But you find your ground in insanity. You build up a lie from glamour filled safety, But living a lie isn't what you came here for. We didn't come together to fill empty space With mindless pleasure caught in stasis. We fell together to look for the trace That made living wholeheartedly our nemesis. There's no time to live back in yesterday. It's time we pulled each other together, So we can make our way back to grace. Our hands together for the perfect pace. Remembering better days was our place. Always wanting easier times when Just being alive was our homemade Zen, ...

I drafted behind teachers and peers. Tailing them, hoping my insecurities disappear. Hoping that following someone great, There'd be no reason for me to make mistakes. I had the honor of walking in someone's footsteps, But I was never safe in my own skin hoping to be contempt. I wanted to be faultless. No more reason to fall apart endlessly. I looked for perfection in masters. I tried to become their heir. Hoping mastery would prevent me from being hopeless. It was my desire to be without being messy. The other side was full of rich, green pastures. But it had become too much to bare! I chased after glory. I followed them thoughtlessly. I became a robot programed to become you My silent whisper for perfection was self defeating. I wanted to be the predecessor to legends. But that destroyed my individuality. It wasn't until I found my ground That strength came to me As I no longer feared myself.

I was trying to stay in my comfort, But negligence brought only my demise. Many attempts to stay within my port. As futile as playing with death through lies. Closing my arms as I stay on my own, I refuse help to get me off the ground. This was a crying of my inner tone. Trusting my blinding pride kept the cold bound. I was slowly dying from this frostbite. I had to humble down or stay frozen. This chill had to be overcome with light. Now, sun, melt this deep freeze for my garden! Finding strength being alone caused my storm. Extending my arm outwards kept me warm.

Feet slipping at home. You never know when you'll fall back From stress exerted that caused you to sweat. Hands losing their grip. Always grasping for something more Hoping it'll stop you from losing balance. Mind melting apart. Logic losses it's reason As each act becomes programed. Heart racing to its death. No longer filled with care When filler replaces solitude. What was once a solid foundation Loses its form and falls apart. Now seeping to change Into its adversity, willingly.

To go back to my den. Every scratch cost a yen. I don't know when. Now I'm in line. I take a bit of pine Nesting in wine Enveloped in what's mine. Enriched next to my mate I see our holy trait Giving me a date Hovering at this rate To make me late. Selling my newly made den, Enticed by your ten, Voted by more than men. Every note from my pen Now brings me my Zen. So I'm betwixt I have new kicks X out my broken tricks! For now I'm alive! I'm willing to take the dive! Vices pierced with knives Even when not with my hive. For the poor Or remembering past lore Under a mind under bore Remembering my life's tour. To finally give me Hours of being free. Remember my tree. Everlastingly shade thee Even when lying in misery. Too many things aren't true. Who made this poo? Only people who never grew. On the days yawn, Null of any true dawn, Eradicated by my pawn. Zero time to be a hero. Erasing ...

I want to write. I want it to rhyme. I want it to flow. I want it to be smooth. How do I do this? I'm putting words down to be framed. Letters slipping out of my mind untamed. Like skating down the frozen river To get rid of anxiety's shiver, This is how I trained.

Gold towers. Soft locks. Peasantly admiring you. Hard at heart for something new. To be enveloped by royalty. To abandon the ordinary. I challenged my fate To walk in your robe. But when I held your cold dead body, I knew that makeup hid your death.