JHem

Lightning kicked my feet off the ground. Common sense scolded me to go right. But the thumps in my chest poked a hole, Allowing God to grab me by the heart. Little whispers begin to say, "This is for the greater good." Little melts in my ache gave way. No need to be bound by "should." If self-care stood tall, Call upon me, vanity. Clench your fist, sanity. "Only the selfish fall." Splashes of red trailed behind me To cover the shadow showing clearly. Could I let go of the answer, To let the clouds part forever?

Blooming amidst the setting sun, Flames burnt scars against my chest. Love became the healing oasis, yet... Strawberries pierced through my veins, From tingling lips knocking me over. Bringing all of me to my knees. Empty space devoured me whole-y Until vanity of you became solely. Transgression lit up my unholy. The clouds let themselves free. I let God's judgement wash over me. As my heart missed the mark hastily. I had faith my eyes let me see, So how did toxins become my lover? I cleanse my pupils by sinking them in rain. Is karma the reason for my debt? Is it not enough to be my best? Is this my will being undone?

Despair set my heart on disengage As I spoke to the mirror, "no." Letting little lies slip on automatic, Authentic sounded like magic. Flowers decorated my home's chain Like the smiles stickered over disdain. No way to fall if I drowned myself below. Underwater modesty became my sage. Finding myself in you made me insane, Like a storybook penned for tragic. Lonely gave me a ticket to absence, A place with flames burning dictionary. Imagination wrote my life, Cravings drew me to addiction. Life became written fiction, Until words met the knife. The unknowledgeable looked scary, Aloneness washed in the cleanse. Heartbreak shattered all the rules, Replacing being right with the fool.

With a little call for comfort, Your words drew me Nier. Nature's pillow settled here. Rumblings arose loving fights, Under the Night feelings gave flight, To sweat plastered bangs on your face. A letter from me to you, A request by emotional stew. I dipped my words with upmost grace, Heat to bring in steam boiling tight. With hearts to melt into flirt. Like a fish entranced by a ray of light, You came with me through the night. When "shoulds" overcame inner right, I pulled you in, showing you alright.

I had my head telling me where to go, A thought formed like a bubble, Easy to come, easy to blow. I had the judge put you through court, With enough logic for all to be distort, But my body couldn't launch like a shuttle. There was an argument brewing here, I wanted nothing more than to feel again. My heart took center stage. Welcomed into the newage.  It told me to follow the sage. But I caved in from the wish for a kiss. I had arms surrounding me for carnal bliss. Rhyme and rhythm got sincerity to dismiss. I let congruency take away shame. As I cleansed it all to be who I am. I let a force unbeknownst to me, To rattle me up and take me to the unseen. Like letting God take me by the hand, My faith grew with my humility. The chit chat became friendly, Engaged by warming up steam. No longer dipping myself in sin, I became one with the wind.

An experience of a lifetime brought me to, Four signpost to remembering my dignity, With eight ways to get somewhere beyond To help me off the rats wheel over here. Only for me to notice my own obliviousness.

With three words to entice me, I make up all sorts of blasphemy. Why would you call forth the unlucky? No costume here would fit Halloween. Not enough to let my skin wear bare. So I went as the monster kept hidden. Who I saw everytime I passed a mirror.