JHem

It was a rainy summer. As time passed me by, I felt my heart growing numb-er. It was a cold, dreary summer. It was a bright winter. I slowed down enough To let my life come back to me. It was a warm, fresh winter. The warmth returned that summer. You were the sunshine wrapped around me. You laid me to rest for winter. You brought back the seasons. It was a new time to Spring to life. I was able to rest during Summer vacation. You helped me Fall back in place. And helped me hibernate through Winter.

You grew up with ambiguity. You grasped your hands around anxiety. You don't have to cut out the source of your life. You can learn to breathe again as you drop the knife. You lived your life seeking ambition. You never gave up hoping for healing. But you never gave yourself your full attention. You swore if things burst, you're ready for your ending. Your shortcomings made you feel guilty. No one could imagine your inner strife. You felt a slave stuck in your condition. But all you wanted was a heartfelt tending. It's okay to let your world fall apart. You don't need that knife for precaution. You see your reflection captured by sins, But you needn't sacrifice yourself for freedom. You needn't carry that blade to cut away your misery. You needn't live your life with death as your release. You needn't to live life with a way out from imperfection You needn't carry the weight of the world anymore.

Jump, Fall. Mall, Lump. Hump. Call, All. Dump. Groundless, Fruitful Humbleness Vengeful. Sadness. Whole.

Indulging pleasure, Drowned from injecting higher, Reborn from my sins.

You've got a brain. You got all the good grades. You're swimming in accolades. But I have something more. You can figure out the complexity of the Earth. You've got a grasp on all the arguments. You're gonna make sure you always win. But I can understand why you can't sleep at night. There's a cold breath escaping your mouth. Your voice brings shivers to the spine. But what I have is warmth to help you forget time. Let me bring you out of your mind to your shrine. No matter what you can't give up being right. When you're challenged is when you begin to bite. But I gotta admit that I've got fangs just like you. You take a bite out of ignorance, but I defend integrity. You've cultivated your insight, But I've let go of what's right. You bring justice to the table. But I bring people out of their fable. You know all the right answers, But you forgot how the heart wonders. You've forsaken curiosity for textbooks. Al...

I'd let the waves run its track. The course came from what couldn't be tracked. I was unseen by peering eyes. Even invisible to my own eye. But once I felt being sensed, I came from out of my senses. I had no thought of wanting to be free. Once caught, I was afraid of being freed. Now with an audience to show, I began selling my own shows. Expectations caught me under pressure. Everyone's made me feel pressured. Becoming a performer as solid as a rock. I wanted to show to the world how I rocked. I grew up without a name, But the spotlight was how I was named.

Bathing in misery has got me dealing. I had been wound up so tight, Only wanting to be blessed by light. That was until one faithful night. I zigzagged drunkenly towards the fireplace. I became tired of doing right in great haste. I no longer wanted to reach for first place. This was when I had a descent from grace. I gave my soul to be devoured by the devil. My life no longer grew towards a goal, So I grabbed for one more lick of pleasure. Reaching out for sin had no more pressure. After being accustomed, I felt I had blossomed. Lucifer couldn’t swallow my old ambition, So he fought to return it through attrition. But I no longer claimed custody. Life with no fear of wrong became serenity. Some may say I’ve grown to become a pity, But selling my humanity gave me such clarity. I had been wrought with being clean cut. Now I feel my way through unkept ambiguity. I thought this apathy would turn me into a mutt, But it feels like trusting my gut has given new ...