183. Dancing With No Smile

You left your home,
You left your dreams,
You left your honesty.

When reality felt ethereal.
And you asked, "why?"
When it was built on hopes.

Feeling like a garden gnome.
Feeling like decoration, it seems.
Feeling like you're not ready to mope.

I've read all about this.
Defined as a "pattern."
In hopes of seeking bliss.

To escape feeling flatten,
You invited me for a kiss,
Wishing for pain to be forgotten.

I abide, willingly so.
No strings pulled either way.
I knew of this passing sunset.

You let your feet be swept,
As do I let myself be bare,
Knowing this leads to nowhere.

Oh, I knew, I heartbreakingly knew
I knew, the taste of charm.
Knew it as nothing sincere.

I followed your hand, 
When you pulled me to dance.
For you to say, "it's just us here."
While holding a blank stare.
But didn't hide that I wept.
Knowing there never would be
Another sunrise for you and me.

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