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It's rather nerve-racking To feel so alone again I feel the desire to start crying From remembrance of being slain Just another shot of self-doubt No longer looking forward to dreams Only the tasteless impossibility Of closing off from all this trembling Who would truly know What it's really like to be all alone I only embody the senseless tone As I begin hitting another low Don't pray for me Don't tell me it'll get better Just an uninquisited sympathy There's no hope to see! I don't believe in faith I don't believe in forever I believe in uncertainty I believe in impermanence I don't believe I'm meant for much You may say how I can feel such I believe I'm bound by loneliness You may say I don't deserve this mess But who's to say your sentiments Will cover over my downfall from Leaking insides eroding my eyes I'm hiding my prayers in a forgotten tent They've been shaken and torn to crumbs I don'

I've always felt alone To some degree On my own Or with all I've chased after people Who were only good to fiddle I've fallin’ with all my heart Then I felt my life begin to start But their only impact Was my loss of faith In believing in the act That love is to stay I know the visceral shattering of my heart I know the tears from your eyes that I initiated Why believe in love When my arm extended Never reached you? Why believe in love When I have too Never returned your gaze? Why give time and effort When I am unwilling When you're unwilling When we're unwilling? Yet, why be alone When I know I was made To not do things on my own Yet, loneliness brings its shade The loneliness of Never having to be reliable The aloneness of Never having to be vulnerable This is my fable Of standing on my own two feet Without the need of another Never having to open up And meet you for who you are Yet, closed off from meeting who I am It's t