55. Hello

Drowning in a sea of her own blood
Allowing herself to bleed
With the bitter taste of shame
Knowing things will never be the same
Not knowing how to give herself
The love she always wanted
When neglected as no good
Slowly sinking
In her own self-torment
With no room for air
Nor space to move
Crushed by inadequacy
Dreaming of someone to call out her name
Before she dug her own grave
To help her open her eyes
With the gaze of sincerity
That she longed for her whole life
Rest was not her friend
As she threw away her heart
That was sick of beating
For no one came to help her breathing
This was her ending

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