29. Blinding My Own Eyes

Oh, how I’ve become a liar
A willing victim

Murmuring lies
Victimizing my eyes

Without a pinch of honesty
I veil responsibility

Turning a blind eye
Disregarding my role
Telling myself goodbye
As the pain takes its toll

I would not see
What I’ve done to me

Playing the role
Playing the victim
Oh, of the life
That I wish for

Unfulfilled dreams
Tainted by my very own hands
Unable to clean the window
Of opportunity
Unable to see clearly
How I’ve neglected my life

Spouting out reason’s
Why it’s so unfair
To live this life

Blinded by fear
Of rejection
I masquerade
The divine

At the cost of gratitude
Cynicism appears
Unable to accept the truth
I turn into the victim

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