JHem

I can taste the cleanliness of water, But I too can taste the filth from drowning I can smell the sweet scent of my perfume, But I too can smell the fear I'm trying to hide. I can see the high marks on my grades, But I too can see the misses from perfection. I can hear your voice of reassurance, But I too hear my voice in self doubt. I can feel the warmth of your arms around me, But I too feel the cold in my broken heart. It's like I'm in two places at once.

I thought I had things under control, But my force to hold my life together Crushed the life I had believed to have made I scramble to recollect my shattered pieces But they've become unrecognizable, I no longer know who I am. The fallen pieces are broken They won't fit back to where they belong I have no choice but to let that part of me die. I create new pieces as I'm healing myself. Soon, new pieces take shape To fill in the void.

It was a rainy summer. As time passed me by, I felt my heart growing numb-er. It was a cold, dreary summer. It was a bright winter. I slowed down enough To let my life come back to me. It was a warm, fresh winter. The warmth returned that summer. You were the sunshine wrapped around me. You laid me to rest for winter. You brought back the seasons. It was a new time to Spring to life. I was able to rest during Summer vacation. You helped me Fall back in place. And helped me hibernate through Winter.

You grew up with ambiguity. You grasped your hands around anxiety. You don't have to cut out the source of your life. You can learn to breathe again as you drop the knife. You lived your life seeking ambition. You never gave up hoping for healing. But you never gave yourself your full attention. You swore if things burst, you're ready for your ending. Your shortcomings made you feel guilty. No one could imagine your inner strife. You felt a slave stuck in your condition. But all you wanted was a heartfelt tending. It's okay to let your world fall apart. You don't need that knife for precaution. You see your reflection captured by sins, But you needn't sacrifice yourself for freedom. You needn't carry that blade to cut away your misery. You needn't live your life with death as your release. You needn't to live life with a way out from imperfection You needn't carry the weight of the world anymore.

Jump, Fall. Mall, Lump. Hump. Call, All. Dump. Groundless, Fruitful Humbleness Vengeful. Sadness. Whole.

Indulging pleasure, Drowned from injecting higher, Reborn from my sins.

You've got a brain. You got all the good grades. You're swimming in accolades. But I have something more. You can figure out the complexity of the Earth. You've got a grasp on all the arguments. You're gonna make sure you always win. But I can understand why you can't sleep at night. There's a cold breath escaping your mouth. Your voice brings shivers to the spine. But what I have is warmth to help you forget time. Let me bring you out of your mind to your shrine. No matter what you can't give up being right. When you're challenged is when you begin to bite. But I gotta admit that I've got fangs just like you. You take a bite out of ignorance, but I defend integrity. You've cultivated your insight, But I've let go of what's right. You bring justice to the table. But I bring people out of their fable. You know all the right answers, But you forgot how the heart wonders. You've forsaken curiosity for textbooks. Al...