JHem

My gaze has been on saturated signs That light up the drunken nights. My motion’s become tipsy to life's unease. The pretty colors lie to me. This detour has me consumed. It's unsettling allure has me in a trance. The anxiety excites me to dance. It's got my heart in a quake. What else will this addiction take? Neon lights whispering temptations, Having me dream through the nightmares. I took sips from the tabooed elixir. It gave me skin so thick That fear never again clicked. My heart, hardened like a cocoon, Covered in a shell strong enough to stop A backstabbing blade trying to take my life. It wasn't until I couldn't extend my hand To someone trying to jump off the land That I realized I made a deal with the devil.

I can taste the cleanliness of water, But I too can taste the filth from drowning I can smell the sweet scent of my perfume, But I too can smell the fear I'm trying to hide. I can see the high marks on my grades, But I too can see the misses from perfection. I can hear your voice of reassurance, But I too hear my voice in self doubt. I can feel the warmth of your arms around me, But I too feel the cold in my broken heart. It's like I'm in two places at once.

I thought I had things under control, But my force to hold my life together Crushed the life I had believed to have made I scramble to recollect my shattered pieces But they've become unrecognizable, I no longer know who I am. The fallen pieces are broken They won't fit back to where they belong I have no choice but to let that part of me die. I create new pieces as I'm healing myself. Soon, new pieces take shape To fill in the void.