JHem

I hear the bells ringing, It shakes more than my phone. It moves the ground underneath me. For a moment, Bargaining for my wish, It scares my heart frozen. Hoping I'm found in this desert, Breathing is hard for me, Realizing it's not you. This is all but a losing bet I'm not one to gamble, But I'm addicted.

Two rocks smashing it was not, Just beaten knees clapping, As they scrape the pavement. I held my hand to my heart, Submitting to your orders, Nauseous from bleeding. Letting go, My head bows, Denied by the Earth. It birthed, A pact to God, My soul for heaven. So who Broke the contract When she held me, Pinky promising,  "not yet," Adamantly cleaning my wounds, Only to seal my humanity inside them?