JHem

Through every formula, Through every thought, Overdrive was kicking in Studying sleepless nights. Haunted by insomnia. Through rough patches with no break, Facing my insanity is on full intake. I'm without air, suffocated by this dome. My mind's become a retirement home. A home for resentment I never let roam. A home for words never foretold. A home for buried trauma.

I had my head held up high. Mind polished to a shine. Always stayed one step ahead. Always knew to be risk aversed. Buried my heart in the earth.  Right became a statistic. I had my head hide like a turtle. I couldn't overcome a hurdle. I was missing something oh so subtle. My heart came beating, Felt I now had meaning. Looked inside for healing. I jumped with great haste. Everything a leap of faith. Love was worth the gamble. Head first into a wall, Anxiety breathed me. Blurry came my vision. Glasses to get me to see again, Head back on my shoulders. Heart breathing in fuller. Understanding how to feel sane.

Light so dim you wouldn't notice. Flame so light there's no warmth. Too afraid to take any steps, Burnout is my scent. Even your fire won't ignite me. I can't catch onto your trail. Before long, my home's abandoned. After short flashes, my flame dissipates. New residents take hold. There's no light where I had reside. Darkness on the side. As a ghost I hide. Haunting to be never forgotten. As a corner so cold.

1. Make a list  2. Live in jest.  3. Drink the mist. 4. Become the best. 5. No fear of threats. 6. Take initiative. 7. No expletive. 8. Take a break. 9. Live by the lake. 10. No ragrets

I'll take two steps, You'll take four steps. I'll take five breaths, You'll take ten breaths. I'll sit next to the river. You'll sit next to the ocean. Fear makes me blink once. Fear makes you blink none. You take four steps. I take two steps. You sit in contemplation. I sit in meditation. You sprint your marathon. I walk in my scenery. A kiss gets your feet running. A kiss melts me on the spot. I take three steps. You take three steps. We'll take three steps. We meet in the middle.

I'm consumed by phantom pain. I fill my eyes with green. I'm missing pieces of my heart. I fill by becoming a thief. Whatever I've been missing, I've replaced with thievery. My hands make a killing As I'm making history. I've lost what's kept me sane. Losing my humanity's kept me keen. Being darkness became my art. My footsteps as nimble as a leaf. I steal like an unsuspecting kiss. Leaving you unable to draw breath. My eyes stalk what's no longer mine As my glasses hide my dreams.