JHem

Bringing forth what has yet to be Fresh air is breathed Through the newly born Pure from ignorance At one with grace As the breath leaves Thoughts arise Giving form to identity A falling from grace As the pure sees its impurity Death awaits An ending to the known As the breath shallows So does ones life The fight to stay alive Is one of bitter torment. Surrendering its life to the death of itself The pure is reborn to its origins A return to the heart. This moment Right now Love

Just someone to stand by me Who'll listen as I plea With permission to drop the facade By throwing away the masks we've made So we can open our arms By throwing away our alarms So life isn't so overbearing With you, darling

I don't even know  If my words My thoughts Are my own I can't tell If I'm free To my will Am I a condition Of all that surrounds me? My inability To realize I am but a puppet Of the interdependence Fighting for my independence Is my denial towards what is My story, my fight Causes my identity to suffer By playing God

Living by numbers, I roll the dice Praying for my luck to turn I don’t feel like trying--anymore. My eyes, my heart, they’re grayed All I can see, is nothing but a bore Are these my consequences being payed? I don’t feel like I’m here I’m stuck in my thoughts Seeing only my dismay Of the silent past Roaring its unease Unable to let go Of a waning hand Oh so cold Oh, how I don’t even care How I can’t even feel My own beating heart I can’t even feel My emotions There’s nothing but A broken gamble I play the game Betting on the pain Afraid to bet it all On freedom I shun away The kiss From lady luck Indulging in the lament pool Drowning in my own tears I am but the jaded one Yet There’s a hint That it’s about time A glimpse of the divine

I wish you were here So I wouldn’t have To shed these tears All I do is misbehave When I’m full of fears Hiding in my cave All I see in the mirror Is but a haze, unclear I am but the bearer Of past words, unheard My prayers are no more I’m tired of feeling torn I’m shaking at the core This can't be the norm Stuck inside this lore Of a never ending mourn

Left all alone In the dark Looking for something To relight my life Looking for someone To help me dream again Patiently waiting Over and over Always gazing ahead Brushing away this day Scanning about For another chance To reignite with grace Veiled by thoughts Covering the moment Coloring this experience I narrate as if life were dead I'm running out of time I can't dream ahead much more Remembering what's mine I close off the door Of what's here no more How blind I am Unable to see What's always been here With me Perhaps Someday I'll wake up To the truth No longer looking For something No longer needing Someone To allay the pain Time to let it go Let them fall Release me Let me go Time to let my wings unfold No longer held in fears palm I'll begin to sing in calm Giving rise to love untold